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thoughtful thursday
Feb. 10th, 2005 03:00 pmI forgot all my pocket stuff today... wallet (no stop at costco for organic greens, eggs, and beef jerky), phone (don't even have to explain what a bummer that is), pda, etc. sigh. Yet it's an unexpectedly pretty day out. My friend Phyllis drove down here (anyone interested in hiring a drafter or symbol librarian??) came down to join me for a walk at lunch time. My company backs on a thread of Coyote Creek, which is a wolnderful little place to escape to for nature-minded folks like me (though the music of the freeway doesn't always mix so well with squirrels and hawks... I pretend I don't hear it). We had an excellent time, discussing Lost and the need to get away.
I am feeling an urge to get away for a long weekend or a week... maybe on the motorcycle, maybe even rent a motel room somewhere, where I can't do anything but walk and read. I've had a friendship or two shift, and am frustrated with the lack of follow through from a number of friends/club members, am pissed off at the Board of one of my leather groups... and am all told finding it hard to be greatful on the small scale. I do ok at remembering to be greatful on the larger scale (like, my apartment may be small, but it's MINE). I don't want to get entirely bitchy at people.
Today I had an intense IM session with an old friend/acquaintance. Some skeletons were dusted off. All to the good. But the urge to retreat is getting stronger. I wonder what it would take for me to decide to actually act on the urge?
On the home front, the other day I installed a programmable thermometer which my buddy Wyatt gave me. Only it won't quite work. I don't have the instructions... it's only two wires, so I think it's a programming issue... so close, yet so far. It's still bloody cold at 6:45 a.m. Well I got to use my nifty new drill. And I came across some video butt f**ing porn I hadn't really looked at while futzing around, and that was a good thing. :-)
Today's rune was Mannaz, the self. Joy reflecting on itself from one point of view... know thyself from another. Rather fits. ;-)
I am looking forward to the IRLM's Black and Blue Ball at King of Clubs tomorrow evening. I am going to be a Dungeon Monitor for the Scenery's travelling dungeon. It should be fun. I hope the music is good for dancing at some point. Leathermen do dance. :-)
I am feeling an urge to get away for a long weekend or a week... maybe on the motorcycle, maybe even rent a motel room somewhere, where I can't do anything but walk and read. I've had a friendship or two shift, and am frustrated with the lack of follow through from a number of friends/club members, am pissed off at the Board of one of my leather groups... and am all told finding it hard to be greatful on the small scale. I do ok at remembering to be greatful on the larger scale (like, my apartment may be small, but it's MINE). I don't want to get entirely bitchy at people.
Today I had an intense IM session with an old friend/acquaintance. Some skeletons were dusted off. All to the good. But the urge to retreat is getting stronger. I wonder what it would take for me to decide to actually act on the urge?
On the home front, the other day I installed a programmable thermometer which my buddy Wyatt gave me. Only it won't quite work. I don't have the instructions... it's only two wires, so I think it's a programming issue... so close, yet so far. It's still bloody cold at 6:45 a.m. Well I got to use my nifty new drill. And I came across some video butt f**ing porn I hadn't really looked at while futzing around, and that was a good thing. :-)
Today's rune was Mannaz, the self. Joy reflecting on itself from one point of view... know thyself from another. Rather fits. ;-)
I am looking forward to the IRLM's Black and Blue Ball at King of Clubs tomorrow evening. I am going to be a Dungeon Monitor for the Scenery's travelling dungeon. It should be fun. I hope the music is good for dancing at some point. Leathermen do dance. :-)
